Dear Vicki,
What a morning! Today during my early morning prayer hour the inspiration and information just flowed and I discovered a new lie that Satan has perpetuated for years!
I have felt guilty for a really long time about my kids. I felt like I had not appreciated my children, that I was always wishing for "more", as in more than just being a mom. And that is the lie. I loved being a mom more than anything I have ever done. I still do. The problem was that I wanted to DO more with the children and do more FOR the kids. I wanted to take them to museums, and plays. Travel the country with them and show them Niagara Falls, Mt. Rushmore, the ocean, the National Parks. But the money was never there. And so I became bored, and restless and guilt ridden. Not because I was unhappy being a parent, but because I could not provide for my children the life I wanted for them. And yes, fill my own needs to explore the world. To have new experiences. But I never regretted the children, ever.
I cannot tell you the burden that has been lifted off of me. I feel lighter than I have for a long time. And the clarity! It helps me to understand myself and my current situation I find myself in so much better. Why I feel trapped. Why I have felt held back for years.
Well, enough rambling. I hope Alaska is wonderful. This has to be a beautiful time of year to be there. I hope you see whales, moose and beavers everywhere and beautiful mountains.
Love,
Laurie
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