So, the truth about Phillip's house is this. I want to be a healer, I want to be there for children rescued from trafficking, I want to work with kids. But another thought has been surfacing. As we are being fazed out of Dot's life, and the life of her parents, I need to find children to Love. Not to replace Dot, that will not happen. She will always have a place in my heart. And I will Love her forever. And pray for her forever. But I need children to hold, and guide, and play with and work with now. To read stories to, to rock and hold, to comfort, to feed and play with. And I think the Lord, knowing this would happen put this idea into my soul. I believe in it now more than ever. I will send out the letters, I will keep trying, I will heal, and help others heal. The unlovable parent will find other unloveables to Love. And pray that Dot will have others in her life to take my place. It won't be hard, she is such a darling girl. I only hope that somewhere, sometime, somehow we can meet and have a relationship. Even if it has to wait until eternity. And I pray that her mother, my daughter, will never need to know this kind of pain. I hope she and Dot will always be close. And Dot will never abandon her. Or hurt her in anyway.
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